This past year, I’ve been in a relationship, and I was one of those “campus couples”. While it was amazing and I give much credit for this unforgettable year to my man, I realize that I lost my sense of individuality. I had lost sense of who I was as “Janice”. I won’t try to even argue with anyone who begs to differ, but I literally spent all day every day with him. And I enjoyed it. Though I occasionally complained about not having the same sense of freedom as I had in my pre-relationship life, I put him and us above everything else. To illustrate, our schedules revolved around each other and we were in constant communication for most of the day. After a day of work and/or classes, we’d get together to relax, eat dinner, and study. My days always started with a morning text and ended with him dropping my off at my apartment; they were filled with us trying to schedule our work, class, friend meetings around the other’s schedule- we were just consumed with each other. And so, everything and everyone else began to fall by the wayside. 

So…nine months later and it brings me here. In my room, by myself. He’s gone home for the summer and will be back in 3 1/2 months. During that time, I will need to readjust to life by myself. I don’t think it’ll be particularly difficult since that’s what I had done for the past 2 years of college, but I do know that I’m slightly wary and afraid of it. I’m used to coming home to him, talking about my day with him, and just having his general physical presence next to me. But now that that’s no longer possible, I will have to make do with being by myself.

And so here’s a list of some things I’d like to accomplish to keep myself busy and entertained:

1. Reconnect with friends. Hang out more. Be more social! Stop retreating..STOP CAVING, JANICE.
2. Re-read old books and read new ones. If anyone has any suggestions, tell me!! 
3. Study for GREs
4. Go running/exercise! Also eat healthy. Goal is to lose about 10 pounds. I can do this :] 
5. Learn to cook